The Lindor Chocolate Bunny

Week 22 is finished and with another 2 lbs lost this week for a total of 87 lbs to date I am feeling great. The purpose of this post is to acknowledge and remind myself that I will always have cravings and wants. As tonight's group session finished, so have my shakes. I wake up tomorrow with a clear mind and 1200 calories of solid food to consume. No shakes!

I am fighting a scratchy throat and after tonights group session I decided to head to the local pharmacy to pick up some sugar free throat lozenges and a bottle of water. Little did I know that a Lindor chocolate Easter bunny would become an ultimate challenge. Along this journey and after reaching ketosis I really haven't had that many cravings beyond getting through the early stages but tonight was another one of those moments where I had to rely on all my learned skills to help me get through it. I found myself wandering around the store looking at different things, throat lozenges and water already in hand. I went down the Easter candy isle and sitting on the shelf all by itself was this gold wrapped dark chocolate Lindor bunny. This time last year I would have already eaten a dozen of them. This bunny was on my mind the entire time i was in the store and I frequently went back down the isle to look at the bunny. I wanted to buy this bunny and eat it so bad, I even picked it up and smelt it a few times. I kept telling myself that I "deserve" this chocolate bunny because I made it through Optifast. I can eat it on the way home and not feel guilty. It's only one bunny. I do know that it is only one bunny, but what I am not sure of yet is how I will handle an addiction food once consumed, will I actually enjoy it, will my desire to eat the item come roaring back? The old me would not have thought twice and bought the bunny and ate it probably without tasting it. These moments are so important in this journey because now I actually stop and think before putting something into my mouth. Making it through moments like this also help to build confidence in knowing I am getting stronger at avoiding the temptations. What ultimately made me decide to put the bunny down and walk away? I am not sure yet but I am hoping that by journaling and blogging about the experience will provide me with clarity each time I reflect back or I am faced with another food challenge. No one ever said this would be an easy journey, breaking habits and addictions are a life long fight and I think that perhaps I may have started to answer my previous questions as to why I decided to put the bunny down. Put the bunny down, it is the addiction trying to sneak its way back in and I can get through it one Lindor bunny at a time!!